Slowly I feel myself breaking,
My knees feel weak, I’m shaking.
My arms are tired and my legs feel numb
My mind in a haywire and I just want to run.
Stress is building, tears still falling
My lonely nights, I lay
Staring at these dark blank walls.
Hopeless sleep, with no means to an end
Keeping me from the monsters within.
Tragic flares and dreams down the drain
The nightmares I have, bring me the most pain.
Wishing for the truth, but only finding lies
The secrets I try to keep
Behind my dark black eyes.
My tears won’t stop, I can’t keep fighting.
I’m losing all hope of ever finding.
I don’t know who I am, with everything going on.
I’ve lost myself in this midst of a crowd.
My heart can’t take, this never ending pain.
With every word they say, I feel like they drain
My dying beating heart that has nothing to gain.
The stares I receive, like I shame them so bad
But the truth is that, I only wanted to try
Try and fight, for what I really had.
Now here I am, with this lonely broken soul
Awaiting my faith, in this pitch black hole.